how beautiful this child is
her rosy cheeks and rosy lips
the innocence and pureness of it all
she dreamt of walrus's selling balloons
to children on a ferris wheel
she was next in line to enjoy the ride
oh what a shame this beautiful dream
would end up dieing with a scream
before she knew it the dream was done
how beautiful this child is
growing up, applying her lips
and eyeliner, before she'd head to school that day
talking about the crazy dreams she'd have since she was only three
then people would tell jokes about her sense
she'd go to sleep that night and think
about all the wonderful, crazy dreams
she'd dream up while s
nine o'clock sharp
the doors open wide
and everyone's let in
for a masquerade ball
without a date i came to find
a special one, a love of mine
my mask sits delicately on my face
as i look around to dance
it's difficult to find a date
when everyone is wearing a mask
i spot the man across the room
his eyes shine through the shroud
i waltz around the ballroom
making my way through the crowd
i ever-so-slightly tap on his shoulder
and ask him to dance with me
he replied yes
the whole entire night we danced
he never removed his mask
i never got to see his face
i knew i should have asked
i used to live in a house of silence
where there would not be any noise
no cracks when the house would shift
no creaks when i'd walk on the floorboards
and when the sun would start to rise
and the birds would all start to sing
their noise couldn't penetrate the house
i could not hear a thing
my cars engine was nothing near quiet
when i drove it around town
but when i pulled into the garage
it would not make a sound
the worst thing about this silent house
is that i couldn't write my music
the keyboard wouldn't play the notes
and i couldn't learn accoustic
as hard as i tried i couldn't sing
this house didn't want to hear anythi
What Makes Me Happy by x0x0paperdolls0x0x, literature
Literature
What Makes Me Happy
Well what makes me happy
Butterflies and hearts and stars
Are something really cute to me
Animals so soft by far
And things too wide to hug like trees
Friends that stick around for you
When you are stuck in troubled times
Creative poems written by others
Story books, fairy tales, and rhymes
Robots all with blinking lights
The deep sky in the starry night
The difference between left and right
Laughing so hard with all my might
All these things that make me smile
In this beautiful round earth
They could all go on for miles
But none as much as each individuals worth
I go for days without seeing you
And I dont know how I survive
Because its you I live for
And its you that keeps me alive
Maybe the days dont matter
But the night is what I thrive for
Because I see you in my dreams
And I sleep to dream more
Youre everything I know when I close my eyes
I close my eyes just to see you
And when my eyes are open wide
Theres no point in what I do
Youre always busy
Always gone
And now Im suffocating
Now Ive slept
For far too long
I know Im never waking
I wrote these words for you
Short and simple
For anyone to understands
Maybe its not the most creative
Or the most well thought out
But anyone would like it
I hope youll take into consideration
All the things that weve been through
And what these words will really mean
When I will someday read them to you
Ill lay these words upon my bed
You can sleep on them
Think about what I said
Oh these words arent powerful enough
To share my emotions with you
Until there is a stronger phrase
Ill start with I love you
Burning - Let It Go by x0x0paperdolls0x0x, literature
Literature
Burning - Let It Go
Im burning to ashes
Burning to ashes
Feel free, feel wild
Feel open all the time
Unstuck, ongoing
This is where I feel all knowing
Theres nothing better than this
My hearts been racing for days
Whats better than this bliss
But what is coming from this
Nothing at all, I fall
Arms out in front of me
Gasping for air
I cant breathe
With your hands on my throat
And my heart in your reach
I let it all go
Let it all get out of control
Until I breathe again
Cant stop, not now
Ive gone too far
Cant turn around
I have to let it go
Or Ill burn to ashes
Im burning to ashes
The
Her head was spinning. She stumbled and fell ill. She thought, "Maybe one more drink will make me feel better." As she tried opening another bottle of beer she gagged. Vomit spewed out of her mouth on the nearest persons shoes. She stood up nd ran to the bathroom. She kept the door wide open as puke poured into the toilet and onto the floor. Fading in and out of conciousness she saw someone come into the bathroom. As the door closed she passed out.
The next morning she woke up on the toilet. Her pants were hanging on from one of her ankles and her legs spread wide apart. The toilet was still filled with her vomit from the night be
Can't Get Over You by x0x0paperdolls0x0x, literature
Literature
Can't Get Over You
I have, oh Ive been waiting
For you to pass me by again
And I have, oh Ive been waiting
And Ive been wasting my time on you
I, I, I just cant get
Oh, oh, oh, oh, over you, you
I just cant get, get, get over you
(x2)
Ive tried so very hard to
To get my mind off of you
And I know its very strange that
I cannot change how I feel about you
Ive tried, Ive failed to change myself
I know that its very strange that my mind it just cannot change
I know that its very strange that how I feel it cannot change
I, I, I just cant get
Oh, oh, oh, oh, over you, you
I just
Let's get away
(And) Pretend everything is ideal
So fast we'll run away
Everything will seem so real
Let's fake a honeymoon
And get away
Far away from the place we were
And where we stay
A bright beach
No matter what time
It's beautiful
Sunset or shine
Where the surf is up
But we fall down
(Because) We have no idea
If we're going to drown
Let's fake a honeymoon
And get away
Far away from the place we were
And where we stay
Wherever we go
Will be ok
(Because) if I'm with you
It's the perfect day
A cabin
At a mountain top
It's beautiful
Snow or rain drops
Where there's snowboarding
The fall is far
(But) We have no
I cried as I watched the water
Rushing pass my eyes
Thirty seconds earlier
And I could have died
But I was saved
I was saved
Saved from the mess
That I earlier made
Saved from the lies
That I did create
Saved from the people
Pushing on sin
Saved from my death
And Ill live again
Because He gave me a chance
To turn things around
When I had messed up
I fell down to the ground
But He would pick me up
Got me on the right track
Even though I dont see Him
I know that Hell be back
And He saved me
I am saved
Saved from the mess
That I earlier made
Saved from the lies
That I did create
Saved from the p
I'm getting that feeling again
That lonesome wanting yearning for
Attention
What more could I ask for
All I want is you to hold my hand
But you're too busy holding hers
(too busy holding hers)
Too busy to pay attention
To what I am going through
All of this for you (all of this for you)
And I'll say it again
I like you (I like you)
I'm starting to realize again
That it's too late for you're
Attention
Wha more could I do
All I want you to do is hold my hand
But you're too busy holding hers
(too busy holding hers)
Why can't someone hold my hand
Someone take a chance
You're too busy to pay attention
To what I'm going throu
And someday this will all be gone
The smallest thing could mean the most
I could be anything
From the smallest whisper to a scream
Just like I said, anything
Treasure everything, like it could disapear
Because it really could
And not knowing when you might fear
Teardrops will fall and it will all fade away
Someday it will all be gone
Hold everything close to your heart
Tucked deep inside
Don't forget a single moment
(And) Be ready for the wildest ride
If it's lost it might be found
But if it's not it's all ok
Don't put yourself down
I will ease your pain
Treasure everything, like it could disapear
Because it really could
A
You Loved Me More by x0x0paperdolls0x0x, literature
Literature
You Loved Me More
I tear the sheets apart
And all I'm left with is a broken heart
My heart can't be mended inside
I'll just be lonely for the rest of my life
You tell me that I'm going to die
It's just a waste for me to cry
Just sit back and take the pain
Let it all fade away
Am I going to take these lies
You told me you loved me
Then kissed me goodbye
You told me you would stay
Just to finish the lie you made
You loved me more
When I was on the floor
Screaming for my breath
You held me tight
All through the night
When you loved me to death
You tore the sheets apart
And left me with a broken heart
My trust for you has vanished
And all
Have you ever tried to catch a memory
Using an old butterfly net
To watch it flutter around so beautifully
Have you ever tried to catch a thought
With a wooden fishing pole
Reel it in when you know its been caught
Have you ever tried to catch a dream
Setting an iron bear trap
Trapping it into what reality may seem
Have you ever tried to catch a smile
Taking a quick photograph
Cheering you up when youve been alone a while
Have you ever tried to catch me
Your arms holding me tight
Ill stay around always youll see
I, I can't go on much longer
You, you only help me stumble
And I fall
I've walked this road for far too long
Holding your hand, holding your hand
But you squeeze too tightly
The pressure it cuts, it cuts
My circulation
Fingers fall
Hope is losst
Through it all
It has cost
A lot of pain
Too much to bear
A lot of hurt
You stop and stare
I... I can't go on much longer
You... you only help me stumble
And... I... fall...
M: Write it down
R: Speak it out
M: Spill the words
R: Its your choice
M: To talk
R: To choose
M: To lie
R: To listen
M: To me for once
R: Remembrance
M: Do you even know?
R: The guilt
M: You cause others
R: Do you realize?
M: No one is listening
R: To your screaming
M: Anymore
R: Its no use
M: To fake it
R: All the exaggeration
M: Cant make it
R: Stupid cycles
M: Repeat again
R: Love is no longer
M: Because I know better
R: Respect never was
M: Available leave a message after the beep
R: BEEP!!!!
Write it down
Let it out
Spill the words
Out of a glass
To talk
Against me
To lie
I get cross-eyed when I think of you
And dreary when youre near
In my dreams I see you close
But youre farther than you appear
Butterflies spring forth
From my gut to my throat
A little nervous when youre around
I begin to choke
Twiddle youre fingers
Play with youre gum
Mess with youre hair
You dont realize whats going on
Youre in love
When he sits down by you
Youre in love
When hes caught your eye
Youre in love
Youve been through this before
You wish there was nothing more
Youre in love
Mess with youre skirt
Pull down youre sh
If I wasn't this strong
I think I'd pop
Turn the water red
Float away, then stop.
If I wasn't this sane
I know I'd leave
Stand on the edge
1, 2, 3, heave.
If I wasn't this cold
I feel I'd let go
Longing for that rope-burn
Wind it fast, jump off slow.
If I wasn't this tame
I would say goodbye
Caps strewn on the carpet
Breathe, gulp, then sigh.
But...
I'm not strong
or sane
or cold
or tame.
Current Residence: illinois Favourite genre of music: anything MP3 player of choice: ipod Favourite cartoon character: chowder! Personal Quote: music has always been there, even if it's just been sitting in the background
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
evanescence. regina spektor. the spills canvas. +more
[x] You have screamed at an inanimate object for "hurting you".
[x] You have run into a glass/screen door.
[ ] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle.
[x] You have thought of something funny and laughed, and then people gave you weird looks.
[x] You have run into a tree/bush.
[x] You have been called a blond.
TOTAL: 5
[ ] you know that it IS possible to lick your elbow.
[ ] You just tried to lick your elbow.
[ ] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star had the same melody.
[ ] You just sang them to make sure.
[x] You have tripped on your own feet and fallen.
[ ] You have choked on your own spit.
TOTAL:
so i totally get two days off of school cause i don't have to take most of my finals
so on my day off today i did almost nothing
and tomorrow idk what i will do
it's friggen awesome!
so i finally wrote something decent in so long
i hope you check it out cause it's totally worth it! :)
i... need... inspiration.....
someone. inspire me. i really want to write something... bad.
i've tried to think of things to write about... but everything just seems... idk... weird i guess
on the other hand, i made colorguard. of course... i didn't get captain though, because they previously chose the captains... not fair... this year better be amazing.
... i can't even think of things to write... my brain is busted... i just don't feel like doing anything... AAHG!! >_<
I dunno since I saw you last I stole a car, burned down a house, robbed a bank, killed a man, invited hookers to my house, got a tattoo, three new piercings, and got a new boyfriend. O_O
Kidding. I'm good. Just bored like usual, I guess....